It's soon going to be 2 months of me working in a new job, with a new company, in a new city... Everything's new and yet a lot of things are the same... My relationship, my friendships, and my being.
I was scared. Petrified almost at the thought of having to meet new people everyday and finding those select few people with whom I can be myself again! For nearly a week or two I was floundering in the sea of people... trying hard to keep myself afloat amidst all the chaos, silence and the ironies. Funnily, this is what happens every time! When I started a course last year in a new college, I went through this same phase and ended up finding my own circle, my own space. I know that I have been through this time and again, and yet it never fails to daunt me at first.
Working with Google, staying in Hyderabad was a scary prospect too... I didn't find my circle immediately. I managed to make acquaintances whom I could pass time with... but not share, converse and love... :) And then literally like a divine blessing sent from above, my life began to change... I found friends where I'd thought impossible, I became close, I 'clicked' with so many people... and suddenly before I knew it, I had a circle, I had close friends I could count on and I had a great life!
Looking back now, I realise, I've found myself a home... I know so many people who have moved to different cities and yet have not managed to make that place their new home. They're still bound by everything and everybody they've known previously and have not managed to forge new deep connections. Earlier I used to think that we humans are like a cup, once filled with the right people, we fail to create space for new people. Now I know that's not true... Instead we're like that glass with pebbles, where somehow we manage to find the space to accommodate new people in our lives without losing the sight / importance of the ones that we already know... At the end of the day it's just a question of how many memories have you created with people... How many people do you like spending time with... How many people would you like coming home to... :)
We all change, we all grow... And like most other things, so must our circle of friends. There's no such thing as you can't make friends! There's no such thing as a full cup... there's always space for a little more. We just have to open our hearts and let the love shine through.
I remember what my friend told me, I'm amazed that you always panic at a new situation, a new surrounding, but within some time you manage to conquer every situation and find your own real friends! I love him to death! :) Not giving anyone else a chance to come and change that! :P But yeah... friends... I have my own. Old and New. and I love them all! So here's to them and to friendships, and life!
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